Dear God: What in the World?

So when You step in, it becomes apparent that it was You. Because nobody else could have thought of a judge in his seventies with a short fuse and 30 years of experience who would turn down a motion and yet still hand over a win.

I feel vulnerable, a little embarrassed, a little wild. I was looking for You, but an easy win would have seemed coincidental. So You did it up funny, left some suspense, and put Yourself out there to change the entire situation – not just the issue at hand.

I’m still holding my breath, blinking, trying to figure out just what happened, if it happened because I prayed or because You care, or because life is just that way sometimes.

I don’t get You, but it’s kinda fun not getting You. It makes me blush – like a girl with a crush – realizing that You have surprises up Your sleeve, that You’re waiting for me to be open enough to accept You as You are, crazy paradoxical You who are Love and Consuming Fire.

I’m feeling a little shy today, a little giddy, and WAY out of my league. Thank You for that. A girl needs a bit of excitement in her life…

6 thoughts on “Dear God: What in the World?

  1. Nancy

    I can almost see you blinking your eyes. And I can almost hear God, in response to your prayer saying, “Are you ready? Watch this!”

    And, yeah, I definitely think He just wants you to fall in love with Him.

  2. karenee

    I’m looking forward to seeing what he will do with my impossible situation, my dear. Knowing he does beautiful and amazing is what makes it possible to look forward at all.

  3. Leeann

    Yesterday’s and today’s posts here have been such a blessing as I’m trying to remuster confidence as we’re praying a job for K. Thank you for reminding me that it’s not about my confidence, but rather the fact that the One in whom I trust is worthy of ALL confidence… whether I feel like it or not!!