My Eternal King My God, I love Thee, not because I hope for heaven thereby, Nor yet because who love Thee not must die eternally. Thou, O my Jesus, Thou didst me upon the cross embrace; For me didst bear…
Destitute
A brief preface: I’m sorting through a lot of things about God and my faith and church and grace. This post is not aimed at anyone – it is written from my journey, from this place in my journey. If…
Places
It was rumoring autumn in New England last week when we visited Pete’s parents. The Japanese maple in his old back yard was tinting more red than usual, and one evening while we were there, we could smell wood smoke…
Reach
I went into the hospital in June of 2004 with a herxheimer reaction that ended for me any questions that I might not really be sick. I was having convulsions and I couldn’t stand up, let alone walk. I was…
Unplug
Today has not exactly been a good day. It has not exactly been a bad day. Or maybe it has been horrible. Or spectacular. I think that the technical word for my state today is “stir-crazy.” I feel like I’m…
Opinion II
Yup. I forgot I was going to try to post one per week. So here is this week’s post in which I will be more direct than I typically allow myself to be at my blog. If you don’t want…
Bare
When everything strips down bare and I stop trying, I smile again, involuntarily when I’m not fighting, meeting expectation. There is a comfortable – almost delightful – blur around the bare edges of my life that leaves me smiling. My…
Exist
Pete pulled out an L’Engle book for me last night, A Circle of Quiet. Diane Cole from USA Today describes this book: “L’Engle’s chronicle is filled with a sense of the adventure of life, as well as with an awareness…
Reckoning
I’ve been figuring lately, not in the numbers sense, but in the “something isn’t right, but I know I’m not wrong” sense. I haven’t been able to put my finger on it until yesterday, when I quite tripped across a…
Exposed
I told someone yesterday, I write my way out of the dark. I have to expose the feelings, the sentences, the lies – and everything else – to the light. I’ve never been able to keep it internalized. Even if…