Today I don’t know what I have to offer anyone. It seems like everything I say or do is a copy of someone or something else, and I know this is how I learn, but I also know that the…
Sometimes it is all too much, you know.
Some days I go through the world, almost able to believe that I am in control of my own destiny, that I’m autonomous and I’m doing okay. But there are days too when I feel as though I must absorb…
What He Wants; What People Want; What I Want
I woke this morning and thought about spending time with God, thought about all the people who told me that every day was not enough, that a whole life was not enough – as if they were trying to pay…
Light, Dark, and Goodness
Sometimes, you have to shoot in the dark. You have to let in every bit of light that is there – even the light your eyes don’t see. Photography is like faith that way, uncovering light – even in darkness.…
Shaken
Pete tells me he has never seen me so tired. Ever. And he’s seen me through a lot – a hospital stay, a return to the wheelchair, two pregnancies, two births, his paper route, and the start of a business.…
you have to leave the shore
His love is a deep, deep ocean, and I know this, but I sometimes pretend I don’t because I prefer the shore, because the view is better from here. but really, I’m not moving because I prefer the warm sand…
Morning Tea
I’m waiting for Joy again. She has been invited for tea – and crumpets – if she’d like to visit my warm house this morning. The sun has already arrived, but Joy is late; perhaps the cold night was too…
No.
Keep your chin up. Look at the good around you. You must keep going. God is good, God is good, God is good, God is Good. These are the things you tell yourself to move forward when your heart breaks.…
Burnout
She posted about burnout, and how she got it. I clearing my Reader, thinking I’d skip over her post, but she said, “I worked myself out of being myself…” and I know how she feels. I read her heart and…
Slow Bleed
It is bleeding into everything, the depression that has ripped my life apart again in the last two weeks. I try to gather my wits, try to do what I know is best for my body, but I can’t work…