i figured out the thing that hit me hardest when i was at my parents’ a few weeks ago. i walked in feeling pretty healthy – exhausted as anything, but pretty healthy as a person – and needing some rest,…
magic – a meditation
when the words come (not this morning, i think), they are simple words for intense feelings, but they are the right words. of course, i don’t have time to write them down or the ability to remember them later –…
mornings in-between
We finally bought that patio table I’ve been dreaming about, and I’ve found my spot in our new apartment where the light is white and I can hear the birds and feel the breezes in the morning and the evening.…
words that…
i need words the words that say more than pictures do, words that script colors on white with only black and white words that tell what happened what happens what happens next words that express feeling and sadness that give…
snapshot
“Do you feel alive at all? Because I don’t feel like I know you right now.” “If it’s any consolation, I don’t feel like I know me right now either. I feel dark inside. And very, very tired.”
When I Need Him
Sometimes, I am afraid He is not really there. For big things like car accidents and 9/11 and cancer, or for littler things like gall bladder issues and daily peace. There is an essential oil for anything you want to…
Apparently, I Don’t Believe
And I’m not yet sure I want to… Since I was a child, I’ve heard about that eighteen inches between the head and the heart. I was taught the danger of knowing something in your head and not believing it…
How Great?
My mom told me recently that the first time she ever felt me move in her womb was during a congregational hymn at – of all places – a Bill Gothard convention. The irony of that location alone makes me…
Always Vulnerable Now
“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal.…
On Being Relational – and Being Alone
It is one thing to say and to believe that solitude is okay, that I *do* need to find myself in God alone, and this is best done in “the wilderness,” as it were. But even when I am not…